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Another late one. I wonder if my parents get annoyed by me staying up late typing a bunch. Not only that, but I know my body get's ticked at me for not getting any sleep. From now on, blog at 9:00. If I miss it, then too bad, no blog for you. It's better than doing it late every night until I'm too tired to be awake during the things I write about. I especially need to be quite awake for tomorrow because at around 6:00, Zach's mom is going to pick me up and take me to their house so that Zach and I can make a music video for his school project. The song we are using is "Nobody's Listening" by Linkin Park. Yeah, it's not the most positive song, but we'll probably work with it to make it somehow point to God. I would've prefered to do the song "Noise for your Eyes" by Earthsuit, but 1. the song will not upload to Windows Movie Maker, and 2. Zach probably wouldn't like the song because him and I are starting to become quite different lately. He's into more dark and depressing music like Demon Hunter and Red, and albeit it's Christian, but have you heard their lyrics?? You try to tell me
You can heal me
But I’m still bleeding
And you’ll be the death of me
It sounds hopeless to me, like they're dwelling on things instead of putting their trust in God and forgiving people. I like bands that make me feel peaceful and hopeful and happy. Stuff like Boards of Canada (Maaan, their music puts you in the strangest mood) and Christian rap groups like KJ-52, Manafest and Tobymac. Zach has some KJ-52 CD's but I don't know how much he actually listens to them. Anyways, we're doing "Nobody's Listening", and then, after we finish it, we're going to do a video for "1STP KLOSR" by Linkin Park, which I already have an awesome idea for. I put this together quite a while ago and I posted it on Facebook, but they took it off because of copyright stuff. The drawings will be replaced with actual footage once we get together, and the video will be for the whole song, this is just a preview. Oh, and I just remebered something, we're having a garage sale tomorrow (which I won't be here for) and we already got some things sold on Craig's List. Our old swing that we loved to death was sold for about 35 bucks or something, and we sold our huge screen TV for about 100 bucks and I think our basketball hoop is going, too. The rest of our stuff is going to be sold tomorrow during the garage sale. Stuff like barbies, stuffed animals, some chairs, a lot of stuff. We're actually giving away beanie babies and little stuff like that for free. We really wanna scale down, especially since we're going to be moving into a smaller house sometime in the summer. I've been pretty excited about it because I really like going new places, but apparently the rest of my family's not so happy about it. Whoa whoa whoa, it's past 12, I'm gonna go to sleep, man. Sheesh.
I get none. It's 9 something right about now so if I go to bed soon I might fall asleep by 12. It takes me a long time to get to sleep. You know what sucks right now? I am behind by 3 lessons in math all because I couldn't pay attention today due to lack of sleep. I was going to log onto the KPL homework help site, but my computer freaked out and wouldn't allow me to use the internet. Then as soon as I got the internet back I completely neglegted the fact that I had work to do. I always do that. Once I realize something needs to be done I just completely ignore it and try to forget it. Then the other half of me is going "Hayden, you better go do that homework, what are you thinking? You think you can just get away with doing no work and make the excuse that you forgot? You know there's consequences and you will end up getting upset that you're behind, but it's all your fault." Now... I know I shouldn't be so hard on myself, but if any of you notice that I tend to be pretty nice to other people, well all of the anger and hate that gets put aside I always end up dumping on myself because I don't want to give it to anybody else. Now I do talk to God a lot and ask him to take the anger away from me, and I know that he's perfectly capable of doing that, but I feel like somehow everytime he takes it away I just find another stupid reason to get angry. The thing is, though, I remember a story in the bible, I can't remember where it is, but it said something about a guy who was so angry and so stressed out that he was on the verge of destroying some city(?) so God picked him up and put him in some forest or something next to a calm stream and let the guy just relax and let his stress go away. I've been praying for something like that to happen to me, like being given the opportunity to just relax but I have all this homework to do that I don't have time to relax. Hey, now I just remembered something, I remember I heard that story at Youth Group when we were doing a lesson about stress... Augh, I wish I paid more attention during that... I remember when Ken asked if I had any stress in my life I was just like "Nah, I'm doing pretty good. Everything's peaceful." Must have been before school or something, sheesh. Maybe if I get some more sleep I will have less stress on my mind.
I don't know what time it is, but I just remembered to do a post. I also just remembered to brush my teeth a while ago, which I forget to do a lot, which is why my teeth are on the verge of disintegrating. Okay I'm exaggerating, but they look really bad. Zach said that he was going to film a video to remind me to brush my teeth every day. We were talking about my bad memory on the phone a little bit ago. That's probably the reason I remembered to brush my teeth. I keep making spelling mistakes for some reason, but of course I am correcting them. I must just be tired. For some reason I am thinking about Domo right now, the little scary-faced brownie guy. He's cute, I've seen some of his cartoons on youtube, I like him. Wow, I'm really tire. Oh crap, I forgot to do my math. It's so stinking hard though. I was supposed to get online help with it. I might have to wait until tomorrow. Aauuugggghhh, I don't want to get all super behind on math again. I always get behind on it and then I procrastinate and take months to finish. I just finally got caught up from last time, too. Okay I'm rambling, I should probably get some sleep. My eyes are, like, wide open an bloodshot that's how tired I am. I never get tired, it's weird, maybe I'm crashing from the root beer I had. That's probably why my teeth are so doggone nasty. Yeah. Um. Goodnight.
Okay, I've been paranoid all day because there is a spider in my room and I am for some reason terrified of spiders. I don't know why, it's just some thing. Anyways, a couple days ago I was on the phone with Zach and I noticed a spider on the window sill that had only two legs on each side of it, and I figured it must have been dead or something, so I tried to pick it up with a piece of paper and put it in the trash can, but as soon as I touched it it freaked out and jumped in the air and fell off the window onto the floor. Now, today, about 2 days later, I saw the exact same 4-legged spider on my laptop, so I took out my camera. Then I started blowing on it to make it move and it crawled away behind the computer and I lost it, so for all I know it could be crawling up my sleeve as I am typing right now. Eeeh, I'm not going to think of that. In other news, I made another video today. Somebody called us and left a message on our answering machine, and when I listened to the message it sounded all choppy and distorted, and quite funny. I might as well mention that I got a Myspace a couple days ago (Chelsea wanted me to get one and it's actually pretty cool so far) so if you have one go ahead and add me as a friend if you want. If you're reading this then you either got my email or you got an email from someone who got my email or you somehow found me on Google. You are perfectly welcome to comment on my blog posts, just click on the title and it should show the post with a comment box at the bottom.
I am bad at remembering things. I will have to make a habit out of posting. It shouldn't be a problem right now since nobody looks at this blog at all. I'll update anyways. A whole lot has happened over the past, what, 3 days? A while ago we bought a new swing chair thing for the front yard, we're still building it because it is waaay more complex than our old one, which was basically 5 metal bars and some chains. Now we've got, like, 40 metal bars and holes in the wrong spots... you would have to see it, I'll take pictures once it's finished. Speaking of pictures, my 2nd niece turned 1 year old a few weeks ago (my older brother, Tyler, took a video with his cell phone), and they held her birthday party last Saturday, and I took tons of pictures. Other than that, Zach called a few days ago and told me about this school project he has where he needs to film a music video, and he invited me over this weekend to help him do it. I will probably bring my laptop along with me so I just might be able to post an update. Another thing, my birthday is coming up on May 24, which is less than a month from now, and I was getting anxious, so my mom let me buy something for now to keep me content, so I now have an mp3 player. My first mp3 player and I'm almost 15 years old. I'm a screwed up kid, but I love it. I would also like to mention that a few minutes ago, Sarah and I filmed a short video titled "Fairy". It's quite funny, although I wouldn't say it's the funniest. My personal favorite so far is "Shrimp", which was made by me and Zach. As you can probably tell, I am going a little link-happy since I just learned how to link things. I guess it's half because I just learned how, and half because I have 3 days worth of blogging to catch up on.
I don't know when my last post was, but today is Thursday so whatever. There's a few things bothering me but seeing as I have no idea who is reading this I won't really go into detail. I don't know why I bother having a blog. You know, that's probably one of the things that's bothering me, I have all these accounts online as if I'm some famous person, and the only people who listen to my music are.... I don't even know. Over to the right is a link to my "soundclick" account where you can look for my music. When you click the word "soundclick", there's a page that looks almost like this page, same colors but different website. Under the picture of my face, it says "Artist/Band page of this user:" and there's a link. That's where my music is. Please listen to it and tell me what you think. Anyone. Whoever is out there.
I always start blogs and I never finish them or continue them or anything, but this one I am going to try to post to every day, even if I post just some stupid nothing. Eventually I might just start posting stuff that matters. Whatever, for now I don't care because I know that nobody is ever going to read this blog unless they're a close friend of mine named Zach. Hey, Zach. What's up.
