Sleep

I get none. It's 9 something right about now so if I go to bed soon I might fall asleep by 12. It takes me a long time to get to sleep. You know what sucks right now? I am behind by 3 lessons in math all because I couldn't pay attention today due to lack of sleep. I was going to log onto the KPL homework help site, but my computer freaked out and wouldn't allow me to use the internet. Then as soon as I got the internet back I completely neglegted the fact that I had work to do. I always do that. Once I realize something needs to be done I just completely ignore it and try to forget it. Then the other half of me is going "Hayden, you better go do that homework, what are you thinking? You think you can just get away with doing no work and make the excuse that you forgot? You know there's consequences and you will end up getting upset that you're behind, but it's all your fault." Now... I know I shouldn't be so hard on myself, but if any of you notice that I tend to be pretty nice to other people, well all of the anger and hate that gets put aside I always end up dumping on myself because I don't want to give it to anybody else. Now I do talk to God a lot and ask him to take the anger away from me, and I know that he's perfectly capable of doing that, but I feel like somehow everytime he takes it away I just find another stupid reason to get angry. The thing is, though, I remember a story in the bible, I can't remember where it is, but it said something about a guy who was so angry and so stressed out that he was on the verge of destroying some city(?) so God picked him up and put him in some forest or something next to a calm stream and let the guy just relax and let his stress go away. I've been praying for something like that to happen to me, like being given the opportunity to just relax but I have all this homework to do that I don't have time to relax. Hey, now I just remembered something, I remember I heard that story at Youth Group when we were doing a lesson about stress... Augh, I wish I paid more attention during that... I remember when Ken asked if I had any stress in my life I was just like "Nah, I'm doing pretty good. Everything's peaceful." Must have been before school or something, sheesh. Maybe if I get some more sleep I will have less stress on my mind.